The Cycle - Burning Bed – Goodbye Earl – Independence Day

The cycle of abuse it a tricky one. I’m an (over) educated female. I’ve studied psychology. I know the cycle from books (nice – abuse – apology – nice – abuse – and continue) and not in real life. It is one thing to study. One thing to see it in a movie and say, “get out.” It is another thing to live it and try to get out of it but out of it you must or it / he will kill you. The abuse periods might be “slight” for a while. You might try to say, he didn’t really mean it or he had a bad day or is having a tough time or blame the parents or how he was raised. There will be some rationale. But it is BS! And the abuse WILL escalate! It’ll go from names to getting in your face to breaking a finger to…. And do not think that you can fix him and he’ll go back to being that nice guy you met. It will not happen. He is the abuser and user. Get out while you can. Best would be to not get in it. If the guy has a temper – red flag, run! Do NOT look back. If you are making excuses for his temper or any behaviors – red flag, run! Do NOT look back! Any time you have to hide something, it should tell you that it is wrong. If I sound like I have it together, I don’t.

and so it starts (again)

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